Anyone who works with others has experienced it. The fake smile with the pat on the back. You see the green eyed monster behind the smile. You feel the energetic knife in that pat on the back.
I try not to hate. To know all is to forgive all. With that said. I also believe paranoia is just another word for awareness. I want the world to be good, kind and fair. Maybe it is and it’s just imperfect people being assholes, who piss on the picnic basket. So, with this sad, attempt at enlightened thought. I go on with my imperfect and slightly miffed, observations.
I strive to be an awesome human. I’m not perfect. I screw up. I apologize, fix it as best I can and move on. To expect perfection from me is to set yourself up for disappointment and a hearty round of laughter from me.
Now, there are many, people who think they are the BEST at what they do. Don’t you dare tell them otherwise. It’s fine that you take pride in your abilities, but there is always room for improvement. Get over yourself and stop trying to tell me how much better you are at everything, than me. I’m not a competitive person and I’m just going to laugh at you and piss your massive ego off.
I have endured snarky, passive aggressive comments from co-workers since I started working. The one I hate most, is when I get a lavish tip from a grateful client. I try not to say anything, but when they pay with a card and the front desk person asks if they’d like to leave a tip. Or, they’re stuffing $20.00 bills into the tip envelope.. Oh, the sideways glances I get. The muttered. “Whoa, what did you do for that?” It’s all I can do to keep from snarling. “I gave an awesome massage. Maybe you should try it.” My boss has even said that she hates it when clients only want one therapist. How selfish of them to feel comfortable and enjoy only one, therapist. Oh, wait, that’s costing her revenue!! Too many times, have I gotten a weak, compliment followed by a thinly veiled insult. WTF!? Are you afraid my head will get too big? Is it just that you want me to know my place and assert your dominance? Whatever, I stay for my clients. Who I adore and enjoy working on. I can ignore your comments, for the most part. I’ve dealt with mean people all my life. Insecure people are sad.
I’ve been accused openly and silently, of “stealing” clients. One woman I worked with, was pregnant. Without asking me if it was alright. She called the front desk and asked them to give her client to me. She hadn’t had breakfast, yet. THEN, she turns to me and asks me if it’s alright. Seriously? Well, no therapist should have a lazy, entitled, attitude. Her posture was horrendous! Like it was too much effort to stand up straight and she shuffled. Too much effort to pick her feet up! Well, she would talk about her clients. nasty, snarky, personal stuff. So much for confidentiality. Then, she’d bitch about her sparse tips and that’s when she accused me of stealing her clients. By that time, she was very pregnant. I snapped back at her. So tired of listening to her and other therapists bitch about clients, tips and working conditions. She had been getting lazier in her massage as her pregnancy progressed. “I didn’t steal them. You gave them away and later drove them away with your half assed massage.” Oh, girlfriend did not want to hear that. But, it did shut her up. At least in my presence.
Another therapist, lost a few clients to me. I’ve sent a few clients of mine, his way. I thought they’d get more relief from his type of work. My concern is with the well being of the client. I don’t get butt hurt when a client changes to another therapist. Too bad some people take it personally. I was trying to give a visual aid to a client about a troubled spot. When, her last therapist, just comes over and starts to lecture her. As if I’m not there. He pays no attention to both of our looks of ‘Who the fuck invited you to this party?’ Keeps droning on as my client smiles and her eyes glaze over. Some people can’t keep it short and sweet. I wanted to throat punch him, but too many witnesses.
So, please, people. I’m sorry if I make you feel less than what you are. I’m not trying. Stop projecting your insecurities onto me. I’m carrying a heavy enough load, and trying to improve myself. For no other benefit than to be more helpful.