It’s been a rough, few weeks. All my astrologically minded friends keep talking about planets aligning. The world’s energy is shifting. So is humanity’s consciousness. It’s almost painful to be a sensitive now. At least for me.
I want to help, everyone. After having a great massage from a gifted therapist and friend. We talked about the pain that seems to collect in parts of my body. Why am I holding onto it and how I need to buff up my psychic armor. Then, we talked about the change in humanity’s consciousness and how some, don’t want to ascend. These are the same people who complain about their circumstances but do nothing to change them. It’s like trying to pull a dead cow out of a well.
I’m still learning when it’s appropriate and timely to release someone I’m trying to help up. There’s always going to be some resistance. Change is scary. Some people are so deeply in a rut, you can dislocate your arm, trying to help them out. I’m so over that. I have clients who come back, over and over with the same issues. They want me to “fix” them. They don’t want to participate in their own healing process and rely on my to do all the work. Fuck that! I’ve dumped romantic partners who expected me to do the heavy lifting in the relationship, quicker than lazy clients. What’s up with that?
Again, some people don’t want to listen. My lesson seems to be to gently, release these people, wish them well and move on. I can’t save every person. They have their own journey.
My other lesson is being better at self care. I’m pretty sure that’s a main factor in my pain. I should know better! In the past and present, I’ve been blessed with fantastic teachers. They always preach balance. I have been under a lot of stress lately. Working more than my body is comfortable with. No time for friends, art or housework. Yeah, the paycheck is fat, but at what cost? I feel like I’ve been in a car wreck. Time to heed the sage advice of several, lovely souls who know.
So, my whole life has been a tightrope walk. Trying to be kind, compassionate and generous. Without being taken advantage of. Some people don’t take subtle hints or respect gently laid boundaries. That’s when my inner, wolf bitch takes over and bares her teeth. Then, I’m a horribly, selfish person. Really, you think because I refuse to be an all you can eat buffet that offers dogie bags, I’m selfish? Not my problem. I’m not here for you to abuse, feast upon and use as an energetic toilet.
I seek to attract those who will benefit from and appreciate my work. I seek equal exchanges from every interaction. I will always seek the higher ground. Peace and love to all. Even the rude, dumb asses. They need it most.