I promised myself that I would blog weekly. Then, I began to run out of good ideas. I don’t want a blog that just runs on and on about mundane activities. I have an interesting life and love my work. People are trippy, silly, inspiring and pathetic. That said, I need to explain my absence.
This year, I’ve lost 2 aunts, a cousin and very recently had a cat I’ve known for 8 years , die in my arms. Another cousin is dying of liver cancer and my sister’s husband might have Huntington’s disease, but he won’t get tested. Ahhh, denial.
As a massage therapist, I deal with a lot of people. Some are fighting, life threatening illnesses. Some have won and have the scars to prove it. I was told of an old, Persian saying, once. “Death is as close to you as your eye lashes.”
Death doesn’t bother me. The dying process can be rough. You’d think after a long, debilitating illness that death would be welcomed. I’ve known some people who have fought, tooth and nail for a few, extra days. Then, cursed in anger as they left, kicking and screaming. I’ve known people who left in peaceful, grace in their beds. Surrounded by loved ones. Who knows how we’ll leave this life? Are we ever prepared?
My older brother died in a car accident many years ago. My sister and I wondered what the last thought in his head was. We decided it was something like, “Oh, shit!”
Everyone is getting older. A friend of mine has been to many funerals, this year. He said. “We’re at that age where aunts, uncles and parents are fading.” It’s true.
I have to remind myself that I’m not in my 20’s anymore. Hell, I’m pushing 50. I never thought I’d live this long. I never thought I’d be a mom, either. Life has it’s own plans. Tuck and roll, baby.
It’s officially Autumn. You can’t tell in Arizona. The Halloween decorations are on sale and I’m stoked. This is the beginning of my favorite time of the year. I get to buy new, home decor and anticipate longer nights and cooler days.