I have given notice to the studio where I have worked and honed my skills for over 8 years. The longest I’ve been at any, one job. I thought I would be afraid. But, I’m feeling free and lighter. I’m still filling in for requests and Valentine’s day. I don’t like to leave people in the lurch. I was raised to have a good work ethic.
For years, I have watched as other therapists came and went. Some, had wonderful opportunities come their way and I was happy for them. I often wondered if I would be so lucky. My hip literally, hobbled me. It took me collapsing on the floor of a client’s home. To finally seek help. I’m so grateful for how quickly it all happened. Now, I’m working on my strength, stamina and balance. I have a goal of hiking Zion next year.
My new space came about in a sad way. Friends of mine had a brutal break up. As his therapy, my friend needed to remodel parts of the house. One of the rooms was given to me and we transformed it into a massage room. Another friend came to help me with painting and we smudged it. Physically and energetically cleansed. I have living plants and some of my own artwork decorating it. Everything in it, is because I want it there.
This has been a life changing experience. I discovered I had better friends than I realized. I also discovered how shady some people in my life are. People who you would expect to be supportive. They toss shade and bad vibes as they sarcastically mutter, “good luck.” Bringing up worst case scenarios, just to “help” you prepare for the inevitable. This is not helpful. “Must be nice to have such generous friends.” One person told me. Their tone reeked of jealousy. Yes, it is nice! I have always tried to be the type of friend that I would want. I don’t have many, but the ones I have are precious.
Haters gonna hate. Envious people gonna envy. Pathetic people gonna try to bring you down to their level. Wish them well and keep rising. Extra people gonna try to remind you how much more awesome they are, than you. Let them. Whatever helps them sleep at night. Keep doing you. We all have our journey to make. Sometimes we can help those who are struggling. Sometimes, we can’t. Just don’t be someone who thinks that by tossing obstacles into another’s path. Your journey will be easier, faster or less lonely.
My goals now, are to get back into hiking shape. Create more art. Take care of old clients and cultivate new ones. Be good to myself and friends. Be better at book keeping. Host parties and cook for my people. Stop listening to negative people who claim to be trying to help. Help, with what? How to fail with grace? Screw that!